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He’s 17 and lives in the Chicago suburbs. He loves theater and recently helped direct a play at his high school. He takes competitive AP courses and is working on his Eagle Scout project.

And he’s been on a journey for four years.

Once a week, the transgender teen injects testosterone into his body. He’s already frozen his eggs in case he wants to have his own biological children one day. He talked with his parents and his psychologist and decided he was ready for the next step of treatment: top surgery to remove breast tissue.

“Getting this treatment isn’t fixing something that’s wrong with me,” said the teen. “It’s just helping me grow more into who I want to be and who I can feel most comfortable existing as.”

NPR is not identifying the teen by name — or using his mother’s last name — because they are concerned he could be targeted for being transgender.

His mom, Jane, waited for a call to schedule the surgery at Ann & Robert H. Lurie Children’s Hospital. Then, she received a voicemail from the hospital. Before she even listened to it, she knew what they would say — the surgery wouldn’t happen.

She had already read on social media that Lurie, which is located near downtown Chicago, would no longer perform gender care surgeries for youth younger than 19 in the wake of an executive order from President Trump.

Jane called Lurie back to confirm that surgeries were on hold, then told her son when he got home from school that day.

“I said, ‘Hey, we are going to take care of you,'” she recalled. “‘We will make it through this.'”

It was devastating, Jane said.

“We are being threatened,” she said. “The trans community is being threatened and parents are being threatened. … We will do what we need to do to take care of our children.”

The Ann & Robert H. Lurie Children’s Hospital of Chicago

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Her son feels hurt and confused. His doctors told him after Trump was elected in November that they would fight as hard as they legally could to support him, he recalled. But then Lurie’s leaders decided to cancel pending surgeries and stop scheduling new ones.

“I know that it’s not like a personal thing, like they didn’t look at me directly and go, ‘Yeah, you don’t deserve that,'” the teen said. “But it kind of feels like it sometimes, especially when a lot of what the sentiment has been, in general, towards trans people in society.”

On Feb. 7, a Lurie spokeswoman confirmed the hospital would pause gender care surgeries.

NPR spoke with 10 patients or their parents in the Chicago area about how this will affect their lives. They described their disappointment, their loss of hope for one day having a procedure, and their anger at the timing, when they already feel threatened and marginalized by hateful rhetoric around the country.

These families fear that they eventually could lose access to all gender-affirming care, such as therapy, puberty blockers and hormones. They’ve also questioned why Illinois state officials who have vowed to protect transgender rights have been quiet on what’s happening at Lurie and elsewhere. Northwestern Memorial Hospital in Chicago has also stopped surgeries for minors, families tell NPR.

Ben Garcia, who is a patient at Ann & Robert H. Lurie Children’s Hospital, at home in the Rogers Park neighborhood of Chicago on Feb. 14. Garcia received surgery at Lurie before the hospital stopped doing them, but is worried that other gender-affirming treatments could eventually be affected.

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Lurie’s decision came after Trump’s executive order on Jan. 28 threatened to cut federal funding to health care providers offering gender-affirming medical care.

“Across the country today, medical professionals are maiming and sterilizing a growing number of impressionable children under the radical and false claim that adults can change a child’s sex through a series of irreversible medical interventions,” according to Trump’s order. “This dangerous trend will be a stain on our Nation’s history, and it must end.”

Another patient, a 16-year-old boy from Chicago, had a surgery date for a double mastectomy procedure — until Lurie canceled it. NPR is not identifying him because he fears for his personal safety.

The teen felt betrayed by the cancellation, he said. He has been binding his chest for more than five years, but doing that causes rib and back pain.

Every morning, he faces a choice: bind his chest to fully “pass” as male, or skip that in order to experience a day without pain. He avoids sports because he can’t breathe as well when his chest is bound. A large part of his gender dysphoria is centered on having breasts, he said.

Lurie deemed the teen’s surgery “medically necessary,” according to medical documents his family shared with NPR.

“Lurie’s decision set a precedent not only for other care providers but also for their patients,” said the teen. “They have established that they are no longer the safe haven they have claimed to be for so many years.”

Many of Lurie’s patients were referred for surgery to Northwestern Memorial Hospital, a prominent research hospital near Lurie. Their initial Northwestern appointments were later canceled. A Northwestern spokesman did not answer questions from NPR.

Parents whose transgender children are receiving other types of medical care at Lurie, such as hormone therapy, worry about what the hospital might stop providing next.

“If we can’t get estrogen in a year, what do we do?” says the mother of a 15-year-old transgender girl, whom NPR is not naming because she fears retaliation against her daughter if she is identified. “Parents with means are talking about leaving the country.”

The politics of pausing surgeries

In a statement, Dr. Robert Garofalo said he hears and understands the frustration. He is the founding director of the Gender Development Program at Lurie.

“My life’s work has been devoted to these children, adolescents, and their families,” Garofalo wrote. “As someone who has spent his entire career at Lurie Children’s, I can assure you these kids and these families matter to this institution. It’s important to know that this decision was painstakingly difficult, and it was made amid unprecedented circumstances and external pressures.”

The hospital’s decision, Garofalo wrote, was based on a belief that it could help safeguard the majority of clinical services offered by Lurie’s gender development program.

Surgery among trans youth is rare, researchers have found.

After Trump’s executive order, Illinois Attorney General Kwame Raoul and 14 of his peers in other states vowed to protect access to treatment. In the statement, Raoul said in Illinois, the Human Rights Act prohibits health care providers from discriminating against patients because of their gender identity.

But a spokeswoman for Raoul did not answer questions from NPR about how the attorney general is enforcing the law.

When NPR asked if Lurie is violating the Human Rights Act, Democratic Gov. JB Pritzker didn’t answer. But he did say hospitals are being “blackmailed” into limiting care.

“This is not the hospitals’ fault,” Pritzker said. “Believe me. I know the people at Lurie Children’s Hospital, I know the people who run most of these hospitals, and I can tell you that they want to do the right thing for their patients.”

Lurie and some hospitals across the country paused surgeries or other types of gender-affirming treatment despite federal judges who issued rulings blocking Trump’s order.

A hospital confronts an uncertain legal future

Lurie has one of the oldest gender care programs in the country, launched in 2013, and still is offering hormone therapy, puberty blockers and behavioral health services.

Medical providers, patients and parents point to research that underscores the crucial and even lifesaving role that transgender medical care can provide, such as helping decrease depression and anxiety. Access to gender-affirming care is supported by the American Academy of Pediatrics and the American Medical Association.

The transgender community is small, and families say they feel targeted because of this. In 2023, around 3% of high school students in the U.S. identified as transgender, and another 2% identified as questioning, according to a 2023 study from the federal Centers for Disease Control and Prevention.

Transgender youth experience more violence, bullying and suicidal thoughts compared to their peers, the CDC study found. One in four students who were transgender or questioned their gender identity attempted suicide in the past year, the study found.

In recent years, many states have cracked down on access to youth gender-affirming care for minors, according to KFF, a nonpartisan health policy research organization. Just over half the country — 27 states — ban or restrict access. Recently, Iowa took the step of stripping civil rights protections from people who are trans and nonbinary.

Dr. Elizabeth Mack, a pediatric critical care physician in South Carolina, has witnessed the consequences of a ban in her state. She has treated several children who attempted suicide or died by suicide because they couldn’t access treatment, according to conversations she had with the patients or family members.

“It’s just one of those things that leaves a mark that I can’t unsee,” Mack said of her experience.

This teen already had his surgery but still worries

Ben Garcia, 18, a Chicago high school senior, offers a glimpse into life post-surgery. In 2023, he had a double mastectomy. He believes that without the medical care he’s received for the last several years, he would be a different person, likely more withdrawn and less confident.

“This care has allowed me to be a lot more comfortable in who I am, in the way that I present myself to the world,” Garcia said.

Garcia and his mother, Michelle Vallet, emphasized that his path to surgery was a slow process that proceeded with care and deliberation. Once puberty started, Garcia started to have questions and wanted to explore what it would mean to delay the changes occurring in his body. At that time, he was around 10 or 11 years old.

Vallet reached out to Lurie Children’s Hospital and booked a first appointment for Garcia. It lasted three hours, she said.

Much of the public misunderstands the process, Vallet said, and transgender kids have become some of the most scrutinized patients in America.

“I think they feel like trans kids are just one day waking up saying, ‘I want to be a boy,'” Vallet said. “They go to the gender clinic, wham bam. That’s not how this care happens.”

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She, her son and medical staff at Lurie talked through the risks of treatment, the possible side effects and the next steps.

Garcia went through mental health evaluations over multiple appointments before he could take puberty blockers to stop his body from going through changes.

Then he started taking low doses of testosterone, a hormone. Gradually, his voice dropped and he grew facial hair.

Garcia still takes testosterone shots every week and gets checkups at Lurie to monitor his hormone levels.

He’s now nervous this care could also be affected. His mother is worried that Lurie might suspend all types of gender-affirming care.

“It’s heartbreaking to see hospitals as big as Lurie comply in advance,” Vallet said, referring to the executive order’s threats to cut hospital payments. “It feels like a betrayal … There’s federal dollars on the line, but at a certain point in the environment we’re in, you have to say, ‘No, I’m not doing this.’ “

The suburban 17-year-old who never got a surgery date is waiting to hear back from other hospitals. So far he has a preliminary appointment booked at one hospital — but it’s not until 2026.

He’s convinced the medical care he’s already received so far has saved his life and given him hope for his future. He thinks about studying medicine in college, inspired by the medical care he’s received.

His mom, Jane, said he’s thriving.

“I’m really proud of him, because he just makes sense,” Jane said as her son described all that’s involved in being able to have surgery. “He makes sense, and people are listening to him make sense and giving him what he needs to exist.”

This story comes from NPR’s health reporting partnership with WBEZ and KFF Health News.